January 15, 2018

:: ramblings ::

all saturday i was teaching a class of 4th graders in our church. at home were all kinds of activies scheduled, naomi left the house early for a soccer tournament. while we others enjoyed an additional hour in bed (certain brothers a couple more hours...). thea left the house a bit before i had to head out, she was picked up by a friend to go climbing at our local climbing hall 6a+. she was nervous and super excited about the climbing.
this is still new for me, and i have to tell myself, that it is absolutely fine this way. i will get used to the fact, that my family is absolutely able and very well capable to manage themselfs without me montioring and keeping everyone accountable to my standarts. they fend just fine and i found them all to be happy and content, as i came home at 6pm.
there was even an unexpected visit of a friend and her kids, and noone was turned away from the door but rather served tea and got the needed attention.
of course i knew all would be fine and it has  not been the first time, but it will be more frequent for all of us, that i'm gone all day long. so it is up to me to get used to it and to let go of my set and strucured form of parenting. i know my style is far from perfect and so i actively let go and give them all the freedome they love and need. and this will lead to new growth and character in all of us!

thank you, my family to take me as i am and for giving me the opportunity to let go and grow in this area.

January 12, 2018

the week :: through the lens

it has been on the back burner, i have not been taking a lot of photos for a while now, and that should change. so i put the "hand made" lens back on the camera body and got started this week. it touched me in a special way, as i wander and have the camera ready be it in the kitchen, or living room table... this enables me to see with new eyes and i like it. we will see if it sticks, it is a start to a new friday review of what caught my eye. there is to be said, that i was inspired by erin boyle and her blog "reading my tea leaves". she does a wonderful job and it is so inspirational to have a look at her photos...

:: 1. kombucha is in the making, i like the process. a workshop was all i needed...

:: 2. lot's of hot tea in mid winter

:: 3. back in school, a quick walk from the station to, loving the feel of a busy morning

:: 4. dark evenings need lighting

:: 5. the last of christmas decoration has come down on thursday

January 9, 2018

life is a mobile...

twirling and balancing it all...
i knew, that january will be busy and that i had to juggle a bit much on my calendar. it was forseeable that i would be scrambling a bit through the coming weeks. so far so good, the first meetings went well and some more activities had to be added to my calendar. like a funeral on thursday afternoon, a birthday party on saturday for lunch amd i'm sure there will be more changes to my schedule.
and that is the balancing act of my life.
i'm not a haiku writer nor long verses or stories come to my mind in snipp. it is work and sometimes hard work, to sit down and start writing. and it's not poetic or pretty at all, it's life it is the way i see things and live them. it is a bit of processing my doing to understand it better. maybe to shell out the beauty of the daily doing and being. and so it all is moving, readjusting and equalizing itself, or sometimes even a wee a bit of help, leverage, willpower on my behalf...

just rambling on and finishing today with those words, after a moment of knitting in the still of a sleeping house.